Chapter 9: SuzieQ {snippet preview}
I recapped all weekend in my closet my past sexual experiences and intended to respect my death and also realize that I was being who was going to die. Monday morning I awoke on the wrong side of the bed and went to see Einstein all grumpy and disallusioned with my path for learning lucid dreaming. “So hows’ intending the awareness of the atoms of your body going?” “Oh, its going good I guess. I can’t focus. I can’t seem to hold an intention any longer. what like no I feel like I’m too involved in daily affairs. The daily world consumes so much of my attention that I have nothing left for intending an awareness of the atoms of my being.” “Ah,” Einstein said leaning back in his chair, “don’t worry about it. Before long adventures one must almost always takes stock of everythign in the mind’s inventory. We look at it seeing what we can part with and what we can’t. We worry ourseves to death over our appearence, Perhaps you’re looking over all the variables of impossibility, the ones tha...